Thursday, May 25, 2006
It's London Baby!
I was feeling quite emotional today. I hadn't done any intellectual activity for days. Work doesn't count since it's more practical, than the normal reading and writing most people do. I need time to wonder what im doing with my life. I love the job im in but is that enough.
I was chating to a mate whose from America... and she was saying that im lucky that I live in London and that I can go any where I want whenever I want, since night life here is really good. Thats not true! I was out on wednesday night and central London was dead.
But this is my city I love being here and I can't think of being anywhere else. I know london like the back of my hand. The pubs, the high streets, the castle's, the history and the museums... all that makes london great.
But I've lived here all my life. I need a break from all this and find myself to be able to view london differently. Its kinda like... you need to take a step back to view your life in a different perspective. Weekends in London go by so quickly you hardly even notice them. And night life is like a glimpse into another world. Everyone is friendly once drunk and I've noticed that comparing other countries to Britain, us british have a tendency to do our stuff without bothering other people... but this also means we dont like to be bothered!
My friend was telling me about his trip to Australia. He said that people there would go up to him and were really friendly. That sounds nice and even though the thought of having peolple being friendly is kind of appealing I still prefer to do things my way without being disturbed.
I guess im just feeling down... maybe its not London... its just me. I need to pull myself away from the routine of parties and formal dinners and try to discover myself again. My best friend had asked me to go south of France with him. That would be a nice change. But I cant run away from my problems and I need to face them head on. Im feeling annoyed with everything thats going on... my routine is now so regular that people have stopped asking me what I did over the weekend since they know I went out some where partying.
Its time for a change. Starting from my apartment. I need to move from my area, which is nice but wasn't my first choice when I left my parents house. I need to move futher into the city. Secondly I need to join some classes... yoga would be nice since I use to do beofre and had stopped. This has to be done... its better to start from the problems that are easeir to change, like apartments, than changing the biggest problems... changing countries.
I love London... And I can't and wont give it up for anything but when the heart wants change, theres not much anyone could do about it.
I was chating to a mate whose from America... and she was saying that im lucky that I live in London and that I can go any where I want whenever I want, since night life here is really good. Thats not true! I was out on wednesday night and central London was dead.
But this is my city I love being here and I can't think of being anywhere else. I know london like the back of my hand. The pubs, the high streets, the castle's, the history and the museums... all that makes london great.
But I've lived here all my life. I need a break from all this and find myself to be able to view london differently. Its kinda like... you need to take a step back to view your life in a different perspective. Weekends in London go by so quickly you hardly even notice them. And night life is like a glimpse into another world. Everyone is friendly once drunk and I've noticed that comparing other countries to Britain, us british have a tendency to do our stuff without bothering other people... but this also means we dont like to be bothered!
My friend was telling me about his trip to Australia. He said that people there would go up to him and were really friendly. That sounds nice and even though the thought of having peolple being friendly is kind of appealing I still prefer to do things my way without being disturbed.
I guess im just feeling down... maybe its not London... its just me. I need to pull myself away from the routine of parties and formal dinners and try to discover myself again. My best friend had asked me to go south of France with him. That would be a nice change. But I cant run away from my problems and I need to face them head on. Im feeling annoyed with everything thats going on... my routine is now so regular that people have stopped asking me what I did over the weekend since they know I went out some where partying.
Its time for a change. Starting from my apartment. I need to move from my area, which is nice but wasn't my first choice when I left my parents house. I need to move futher into the city. Secondly I need to join some classes... yoga would be nice since I use to do beofre and had stopped. This has to be done... its better to start from the problems that are easeir to change, like apartments, than changing the biggest problems... changing countries.
I love London... And I can't and wont give it up for anything but when the heart wants change, theres not much anyone could do about it.
# posted by Ice.Fire : Thursday, May 25, 2006
