I hope I know what Im doing....Coz I feel Lost

You want to take a part of me,
Take it with you but remember one thing,
Im still whole without you.

Ill cry at night and laugh out load with my friends,
Im only human and you need to know you cant break me,
It'l take you time to realise this... I always knew you were slow!

Dont worry though,
Il still be standing when a million guys like you have come and gone,
Because even though you have hurt me... I still have been through much worse.

So now run a long with your tail between your legs,
But feel sorry for yourself coz even though I have been hurt,
I can still stand strong knowing that your in the wrong!

I hold you close when I sleep at night,
Im imprisoned under your spell and theres no way out,
I wonder if you are really here or have I fallen a sleep again.

You intoxicate my mind, my body, my soul,
You've incarcerated me without another thought,
Your touch sends shivers down my spine,
I wonder if Im dreaming,
I wonder if I have fallen a sleep again.

You've come back to me and its ended badly again for the zillionth time. It happens every time and yet we never learn. I guess we hope that some how it might be different the next time. But thats not true, we were never ment to be. I guess no matter how much we change and try to better ourselves.... Me and you can not even be friends now.

This time I thought it would be different, this time I thought I wouldnt get emotionally involved. But when its you.... Im involved emotionally, phsyically and spiritually. I know, I know my friends had warned me a thousand times. But your intoxicating. Theres something about you that I can not find else where. As soon as I hear your voice or see your face I am under some spell where I can not think logically. Its like Im a walking zombie. I saw the warning signs around you but I still went with you. But now I am here again doing what I do best.... complaining about how I got too involved with you.
Does this happen to you too? Do you regret our friendship/relationship? I dont even know what we have any more. Its just so complicated. But whatever it is, do you regret it too? This world is full of billions of people to love and hate. You and me can not even fall in that category. I care/love/hate you (I delete as and when appropriate). Is this normal? Can we live like this?

My life too complicated already for me to decide. I just wish there was a simple answer.

This post is linked to W****.

Did you hear me cry,
or see my tear stained face?
I needed you the most,
But all you did was stare and walk away.

Did you hear my heart break,
Or did you expect all these,
I wonder what went through your head,
I wonder when you realised Im not the one.