Monday, July 24, 2006
Confession
I cant take it anymore... I have another little confession to make to you all. I just found out that I have miss read a email I recieved from The Man (AGAIN!). The email stated that he would not be returning to London this week. Which really upset me since I had planned the weekend to spend it with him. But if you know me, you will know that I scan through all my emails. So when I read his email I was like 'Fine, let me cancel the hotel reservation.' Which I did as soon as I read it. But after a few hours I get a call from him asking that if I was still on for the weekend. I'm like "Er...No, you canceled, remember?" The Man then replies that he didnt and that I must of mis-read the email. OPPS. I had obviously mis-read the email and thought 'CRAP! What am I suppose to do now?'
So even though I was running around with my friend, I was also calling around to make hotel reservations. But it couldnt be done at this short notice. All my fave hotels were booked! Damn the summer holidays! But The Man, who some how is always there when I need help had called later to tell me that he had reserved a room for us once I told him I had mis-read the email. Bless his heart.
So hopefully, when the weekend starts I can relax with The Man and a bottle of wine. Ahhh.... Bliss!
So even though I was running around with my friend, I was also calling around to make hotel reservations. But it couldnt be done at this short notice. All my fave hotels were booked! Damn the summer holidays! But The Man, who some how is always there when I need help had called later to tell me that he had reserved a room for us once I told him I had mis-read the email. Bless his heart.
So hopefully, when the weekend starts I can relax with The Man and a bottle of wine. Ahhh.... Bliss!
Monday, July 17, 2006
Love is blind, dumb and deaf!
I love him.
Wow! I hope I said it right. I have recently been speaking to The Man. We have become close even though he isnt near me. I love everything about him. I know before I couldnt accept the fact that he only wanted to have fun with me. But he did say he missed me and that he didnt care about fun. I never thought he left what I left. I had a vision of him in my mind, where he was on a high shelf, where he is untouchable. I can see him and he is near me but I can not truely have him. But that vision changed very slowly and now he is'nt on a high shelf. He's next to me with his arms around me. Weird how love changes things.
I was thinking last night, that we do things thinking we are making the best decision but in fact we are just playing a blind mans game. Like, not calling someone you love bacause you think they dont care about you. But if ever, we actually do pick up the phone and call we will find that, that person was thinking the same and feeling the same as you were. Thats how it was like with me and The Man. Even though I didnt call him, though I missed him dearly, he called me to tell me exactly what he was feeling.
The cliché saying "Love is blind". Well you dont know how true that is until it happens to you. Love is not only blind, but dumb and deaf. I have seen The Man in his ugliest look and I still found it alluring. (sick I know). He has also talked about his business and I noded like I knew everything he said, which ofcourse I didnt! He sings when he is driving, which is really out-of-tune. But I dont care, I love him.
The only problem... He doesnt know it.
Wow! I hope I said it right. I have recently been speaking to The Man. We have become close even though he isnt near me. I love everything about him. I know before I couldnt accept the fact that he only wanted to have fun with me. But he did say he missed me and that he didnt care about fun. I never thought he left what I left. I had a vision of him in my mind, where he was on a high shelf, where he is untouchable. I can see him and he is near me but I can not truely have him. But that vision changed very slowly and now he is'nt on a high shelf. He's next to me with his arms around me. Weird how love changes things.
I was thinking last night, that we do things thinking we are making the best decision but in fact we are just playing a blind mans game. Like, not calling someone you love bacause you think they dont care about you. But if ever, we actually do pick up the phone and call we will find that, that person was thinking the same and feeling the same as you were. Thats how it was like with me and The Man. Even though I didnt call him, though I missed him dearly, he called me to tell me exactly what he was feeling.
The cliché saying "Love is blind". Well you dont know how true that is until it happens to you. Love is not only blind, but dumb and deaf. I have seen The Man in his ugliest look and I still found it alluring. (sick I know). He has also talked about his business and I noded like I knew everything he said, which ofcourse I didnt! He sings when he is driving, which is really out-of-tune. But I dont care, I love him.
The only problem... He doesnt know it.
Friday, July 14, 2006
Too Late.
Take what is yours,
But leave me be,
I wont cry when I see you go,
Coz I knew it was coming a long time a go,
I would have been long gone before you even have the chance to turn around.
Will you turn around...?
Is it too late to see you turn....?
Monday, July 10, 2006
Walk it Mister!
Take an easy route to work today, see the scenery and smell the fresh air... er.. Nope, Cant happen.
This morning I was stuck in traffic on a bus with sweaty men! It was crowded and I didnt even have enough room to breath. Coz of my height I was, UNFORTUNATLEY stuck under men's armpits. YUCK!!!! Not a good site to see in the morning, nor a good place to be on a MONDAY morning.
I made a promise to myself today, that I will walk to work, come rain or shine. I am no longer going to be in the same place I was today, squashed between people. From tomorrow I will walk so I can avoid the traffic and the bloody perverted men.
Maybe thats what everyone should do. But dont consider doing this is you work 100 miles away from your work.
Anyways, I thought I needed to take this change.. Its good exercise, its healthy and most of all..... you cant actually get stuck in traffic!
This morning I was stuck in traffic on a bus with sweaty men! It was crowded and I didnt even have enough room to breath. Coz of my height I was, UNFORTUNATLEY stuck under men's armpits. YUCK!!!! Not a good site to see in the morning, nor a good place to be on a MONDAY morning.
I made a promise to myself today, that I will walk to work, come rain or shine. I am no longer going to be in the same place I was today, squashed between people. From tomorrow I will walk so I can avoid the traffic and the bloody perverted men.
Maybe thats what everyone should do. But dont consider doing this is you work 100 miles away from your work.
Anyways, I thought I needed to take this change.. Its good exercise, its healthy and most of all..... you cant actually get stuck in traffic!
Sunday, July 09, 2006
France Lost, Italy WON The 2006 FIFA World Cup!
Zidane Came...
Zidane Scored...
Zidane Missed...
Zidane's Out!!!
It was a good game, a good game. Well done Italy... They played well!
Zidane Scored...
Zidane Missed...
Zidane's Out!!!
It was a good game, a good game. Well done Italy... They played well!
Friday, July 07, 2006
"I love you"... Hmmm... I think I'v heard this before.
When can you say "I love you" in a relationship, without scaring the person your saying it to? My mate has been with this guy for 6 months. Its a good relationship but like all relationships, its come to a part where true feelings must be shown. All advices given, at times, hardly matter. I always thought that it would be easy to say once the feeling was there. But I know the timing and the place matter too. Trust me... everything matters when this topic arises. Its the next important speech next to being proposed to.
I have heard this line from many men. But I always thought when the right man says it I will return it. Its weird how the standards we set ouselves at times. When I was young I thought Il say it to one man, and one man only. Marry him and live happily ever after. I heard it twice from two men I've dated. Those two who left a mark on my heart. Now I wonder when Il hear it again.
My friend has to tell his lover about his feelings and I always tell him to do it now or regret it later. Coz you never know what your other half might be thinking...
I have heard this line from many men. But I always thought when the right man says it I will return it. Its weird how the standards we set ouselves at times. When I was young I thought Il say it to one man, and one man only. Marry him and live happily ever after. I heard it twice from two men I've dated. Those two who left a mark on my heart. Now I wonder when Il hear it again.
My friend has to tell his lover about his feelings and I always tell him to do it now or regret it later. Coz you never know what your other half might be thinking...
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
FRANCE WON
YES! YES! FRANCE DID IT!
FRANCE v PORTUGAL 1-0
WHO DOUBTED FRANCE? COME ON.... OWN UP!
HAHAHAHA
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY
COME ON FRANCE WIN THE WORLD CUP!!!!
FRANCE v PORTUGAL 1-0
WHO DOUBTED FRANCE? COME ON.... OWN UP!
HAHAHAHA
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY
COME ON FRANCE WIN THE WORLD CUP!!!!
The Man has PMS!!!
Yes that is correct. He has PMS... Read my earlier post if your not sure what that means. He came through to my office only to have a tantrum. Not towards me but some guy on the phone. All for show? Well I hope so... Coz his behaviour has been getting really strange in the past few days.
For those of you interested... today is the FRANCE V PORTUGAL match. COMMON FRANCE!!
My friends have finally thought it might be reasonable to watch this match. Me and them had gone into shock when England lost and they decided not to watch the other matchs. But this one they will watch. Ahh... The old footie gang are back together.
For those of you interested... today is the FRANCE V PORTUGAL match. COMMON FRANCE!!
My friends have finally thought it might be reasonable to watch this match. Me and them had gone into shock when England lost and they decided not to watch the other matchs. But this one they will watch. Ahh... The old footie gang are back together.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
ITALY WON, 2-0
Italy is through to the finals of the FIFA World Cup 2006!!!!!!
ITALY SCORED 2-0
WOW!
NOW FRANCE... PLEASE KICK PORTUGAL'S ASS IN THE SEMI-FINALS!!!
WICKED!!!!!!!!!!!
hot! Hot! HOT!
The weather is sooooo hot! I want to go to the sea-side. F*cking hell man! I cant believe it man. So hot! Aint even got the energy to write! Might just stay near the Southend beach for the rest of the week. F*ck work. Good idea eh?
Oh shit..... I cant go... Who will pay the rent if I go?
Oh shit..... I cant go... Who will pay the rent if I go?
Saturday, July 01, 2006
ENGLAND LOST, NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
England lost. I can't even bother to write. Im so upset.
England Lost.... BUT I DONT CARE I WILL STILL HAVE THE ENGLAND FLAG UP.
England lost... They played well.
England lost... One day they will WIN!!!
(If your upset about this news too... Dont worry... There's always the next world cup)
England Lost.... BUT I DONT CARE I WILL STILL HAVE THE ENGLAND FLAG UP.
England lost... They played well.
England lost... One day they will WIN!!!
(If your upset about this news too... Dont worry... There's always the next world cup)
