Friday, May 19, 2006
Rumours
There was a rumour that was passed around my friends. It was regarding me and another mate of mine, Mr S. The rumour was that Mr S fancies me and has done so since we had first met. Mr S, who is a good friend and always there to support me heard the same rumour but this time it was said that I fancied him.
From my side of the story...
I had thought about him ever since I heard this rumour. The signs were all there. I always had a feeling that he had a crush on me and at times he would do things to make me believe it. Ever since the thought of him got into my head I couldnt get it out. I started seeing him in another light. I saw he's sweet side, he's sensitive side and even he's sexy side (Hence the name Mr S.)
This rumour had started to control me, whether I wanted it to or not. My friends, who had started the rumour, were always giving me more reasons to like him. I even started seeing if he had a girlfriend I didnt know about.
I had to find out. I had to know if this was true. Was I just wasting my time on a rumour that wasnt true or was this a gold mine I was sitting on?
I had some time to think about it after the wedding was over, I wondered if I actually liked him. Or was this just another reason I made myself believe I needed someone in my life because I've been single for some time now. I have had a few dates now and then but not a relationship. Do I just feel like I have to be with someone because I havent been with someone for so long?
Can rumours control your life? can people's little thoughts dictate whether your with the right person or not? We have all been there... someones concern over your life might seem like their trying to control you. Someones little gesture, even though you might think it being such a big comment, might just be a mindless thought on their behalf. This rumour might of been someones opinion but it turned into something big and controling.
I heard this rumour three months ago and today I found out it wasnt true. I am thankful that I found it out beofre I could do anything.... coz he is still a friend. Mr S had the same things running through his mind when this rumour had started. o stop all these confusions I could have picked up phone and called him. All of this would never of happened. But I choose to dwel over it.
I came to a conclusion after all this had happened I could have just stopped and thought about this clearly. I should have talked this through with Mr S. HoweverIi might have reacted to this rumour... one thing was ment to be... I was ment to have thought about Mr S it a different light. And now he's not only a friend but he's also a friend I would never think about sexually. Coz this rumour made me realise that Mr S, however nice he may be, and me aint ment to be. This rumour began as a little mindless thought but it bought me and Mr S together.
From my side of the story...
I had thought about him ever since I heard this rumour. The signs were all there. I always had a feeling that he had a crush on me and at times he would do things to make me believe it. Ever since the thought of him got into my head I couldnt get it out. I started seeing him in another light. I saw he's sweet side, he's sensitive side and even he's sexy side (Hence the name Mr S.)
This rumour had started to control me, whether I wanted it to or not. My friends, who had started the rumour, were always giving me more reasons to like him. I even started seeing if he had a girlfriend I didnt know about.
I had to find out. I had to know if this was true. Was I just wasting my time on a rumour that wasnt true or was this a gold mine I was sitting on?
I had some time to think about it after the wedding was over, I wondered if I actually liked him. Or was this just another reason I made myself believe I needed someone in my life because I've been single for some time now. I have had a few dates now and then but not a relationship. Do I just feel like I have to be with someone because I havent been with someone for so long?
Can rumours control your life? can people's little thoughts dictate whether your with the right person or not? We have all been there... someones concern over your life might seem like their trying to control you. Someones little gesture, even though you might think it being such a big comment, might just be a mindless thought on their behalf. This rumour might of been someones opinion but it turned into something big and controling.
I heard this rumour three months ago and today I found out it wasnt true. I am thankful that I found it out beofre I could do anything.... coz he is still a friend. Mr S had the same things running through his mind when this rumour had started. o stop all these confusions I could have picked up phone and called him. All of this would never of happened. But I choose to dwel over it.
I came to a conclusion after all this had happened I could have just stopped and thought about this clearly. I should have talked this through with Mr S. HoweverIi might have reacted to this rumour... one thing was ment to be... I was ment to have thought about Mr S it a different light. And now he's not only a friend but he's also a friend I would never think about sexually. Coz this rumour made me realise that Mr S, however nice he may be, and me aint ment to be. This rumour began as a little mindless thought but it bought me and Mr S together.
# posted by Ice.Fire : Friday, May 19, 2006
