Monday, May 29, 2006
Thank God for hope.
If you could see me today you'll see a big smile on my face. Its bank holiday today. And most of you must of spent it with friends and family. Thats what bank holidays are really about aint it? I planned to do nothing today... have a lazy Monday in my apartment. The only time I went out was when I had to nip to the shop down the corner. As I headed home I found a man standing out side my apartment constantly pressing a buzzer. I wanted to spell it out to him that the person wont be home so stop trying! So instead I did the next thing, I took my keys out to get in. For me to get into the door I had to ask this man to move aside so I did it in my best possible voice. This man turned around and gave me a shock of a life time. This man was The Man. He stood there smiling down at me, whilst I stood there open mouth with probably eyes wide open. How good has this day been eh? Well it gets better. He had come to see me... which surprised me even more. The Man has found out that I wont be in work for some time and tried to reach me over the weekend... (How sweet?)
He bought me some flowers and choclates to make me feel better. Little did he know that him coming to see made me feel a hundred times better, but i couldnt tell him that. It really didnt matter what he bought me coz I was still standing in front of him wearing an old t-shirt, lose joggers and a massive coat wraped around me. I looked like SHIT!I had invited him in... coz thats wat single women do, they invite the sexy co-worker in (they also get onto other levels with him, but I wont get into that.) How nice of him to see... he could of been anywhere in the world... (Im guessing he probably would have gone to meet other sexy man and hang out, just my fantasy)... But nope he was in my living room talking to me. I didnt pay attentsion to most of this conversation, I felt like a school girl (lol). All the worries in my head went away when I saw him out side my apartment. And I must admit I had quite a few more fantasies of him whilst he was in my apartment.
How the day progressed will only be known to me and him. However... I realised one thing. I was given a chance to get to know The Man many times before. But I had never taken the chance and so making sure nothing happen between me and him. How many chances do we get in the world to do something right? To do something that will make us happy... even for one moment?
I dont know what went through his head when he was coming to meet me today... I dont know if he had argued with himself when he came to meet me today... But whatever went on in the head of his.. Im glad of the decision... Coz I was to cowardly to make this decision before hand.
When he was here with me... I had obviously drunk to much. But how can I not drink around him. After he left I had a sudden urge to call all my friends to let them know what happened. I had even more of an urge to call my ex's to let them know what happened in more detail. But I didnt coz I dont Kiss n Tell. However my last post about soul mates made me have a little more hope in my life today. Coz thats what we all need, is'nt it? Coz hope makes the world go round... Hope makes us wake up in the morning... and hope makes us act the way we do... Without hope I probably wouldnt of impressed him with my art work or even worse without hope I wouldn't of invited him to my apartment.
He bought me some flowers and choclates to make me feel better. Little did he know that him coming to see made me feel a hundred times better, but i couldnt tell him that. It really didnt matter what he bought me coz I was still standing in front of him wearing an old t-shirt, lose joggers and a massive coat wraped around me. I looked like SHIT!I had invited him in... coz thats wat single women do, they invite the sexy co-worker in (they also get onto other levels with him, but I wont get into that.) How nice of him to see... he could of been anywhere in the world... (Im guessing he probably would have gone to meet other sexy man and hang out, just my fantasy)... But nope he was in my living room talking to me. I didnt pay attentsion to most of this conversation, I felt like a school girl (lol). All the worries in my head went away when I saw him out side my apartment. And I must admit I had quite a few more fantasies of him whilst he was in my apartment.
How the day progressed will only be known to me and him. However... I realised one thing. I was given a chance to get to know The Man many times before. But I had never taken the chance and so making sure nothing happen between me and him. How many chances do we get in the world to do something right? To do something that will make us happy... even for one moment?
I dont know what went through his head when he was coming to meet me today... I dont know if he had argued with himself when he came to meet me today... But whatever went on in the head of his.. Im glad of the decision... Coz I was to cowardly to make this decision before hand.
When he was here with me... I had obviously drunk to much. But how can I not drink around him. After he left I had a sudden urge to call all my friends to let them know what happened. I had even more of an urge to call my ex's to let them know what happened in more detail. But I didnt coz I dont Kiss n Tell. However my last post about soul mates made me have a little more hope in my life today. Coz thats what we all need, is'nt it? Coz hope makes the world go round... Hope makes us wake up in the morning... and hope makes us act the way we do... Without hope I probably wouldnt of impressed him with my art work or even worse without hope I wouldn't of invited him to my apartment.
# posted by Ice.Fire : Monday, May 29, 2006
