Thursday, June 22, 2006
W****
I was walking down the street when I noticed a couple of school kids... Well they were'nt kids, they were teenagers. But... anyway... They were messing about, not worrying about the world. Like many teenagers they were talking about their boyfriends.
I was'nt eavesdropping because they were talking so loadly. (I understand that many people use this excuse when they say this, but if you ever come across teenage girls you would know the volume they speak in.)
Anyways they were going about their day and talking about some guys they know, who Im guessing are their boyfriends. I heard one of them say something that got me soooo upset. I dont know why and I dont think I would ever know why this upset me soooo much. But it did. The girl said "Have you spoken to W**** lately?" (I cant rename this person). But even though this was another W****, it felt like I was 15 years old again and my friends were asking about him. Its weird how a little sentence can take you back in time and make your heart want to break in pieces. I was at work and I just felt soooo upset.
Why does he do this to me. I was told I would never forget him and mearsure many of my relationships by what he and me had. God this is getting at me soooooooooooooooooooo much.
At the end of the day, I came down to the age old question..... "Should I call him?"
And then I also did what I have always done and, probably, will always do... I turned my phone off!
Did I do the right thing?
I was'nt eavesdropping because they were talking so loadly. (I understand that many people use this excuse when they say this, but if you ever come across teenage girls you would know the volume they speak in.)
Anyways they were going about their day and talking about some guys they know, who Im guessing are their boyfriends. I heard one of them say something that got me soooo upset. I dont know why and I dont think I would ever know why this upset me soooo much. But it did. The girl said "Have you spoken to W**** lately?" (I cant rename this person). But even though this was another W****, it felt like I was 15 years old again and my friends were asking about him. Its weird how a little sentence can take you back in time and make your heart want to break in pieces. I was at work and I just felt soooo upset.
Why does he do this to me. I was told I would never forget him and mearsure many of my relationships by what he and me had. God this is getting at me soooooooooooooooooooo much.
At the end of the day, I came down to the age old question..... "Should I call him?"
And then I also did what I have always done and, probably, will always do... I turned my phone off!
Did I do the right thing?
# posted by Ice.Fire : Thursday, June 22, 2006
